My parents are making me go see the doctor on Wednesday.
Well it's gonna have to be another day, since my utterly amazing bf is kidnapping me after work on Tuesday. (Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii)
But anyway. Everyone says I look so bad lately (gee thanks people xD).
My dad called today and he was like "you sound exhausted" I said "oh" he said "why is that?" "maybe because I am exhausted dad?"
Anyway my mum and stepdad think it isn't normal that I'm always having headaches and am so tired all the time so they're nagging I should let a doctor test my blood for all sorts of strange diseases.
My stepdad is nagging I should leave Howard alone because he might have given me Toxoplasmosis. Which is just great.
I just think they're over-working me. (They being my bosses at work). And I need to get a good night rest, which doesn't work if my mum keeps waking me up at 8.30 whenever I don't have to get up at 5 for once. Grmbl.


Oh and I cannot believe I haven't seen HP yet =O It's an outrage!
I'm gonna go see it on Wednesday and Saturday though and if they're still playing it when Lotte comes back, she'll make me go see it with her too probably, which I'm not gonna complain about =DD

Soooo i've been gone for like a bit over a week now and tons of stuff has happened.
Mostly I've been working nearly non-stop, that's why I'm not updating and commenting and shit.
But also a lot of other stuff happened, I'll try to summarize.

1. Mira started dating a guy from work.
Remember that I mentioned one of my co-workers was a drug-addict?
Well actually two (out of three) of my co-workers were drug-addicts.
Mira started dating the second drug-addict.
He asked her phonenumber, she hadn't been dating a guy in over 2 years (aside from one-night-stands), she said yes and one thing led to another.
After a week she told me it was a very serious relationship and stuff.
Then the day before yesterday (or something) he came to work really really stoned and my bosses were so sick of it that they threw him out.
Mira was heartbroken, I convinced her that he wasn't worth her and she didn't want to meddle with a drug-addict! She seemed fine yesterday. Let's hope she says away from him!

2. Belinda's stepdaughter (who is one year older than her) is pregnant.
Belinda's been trying to get pregnant for like forever (read: she's been trying to convince Kevin to give her kids) and she's really unhappy now.
Kevin's talking about going back to England, to be with his grandchild. He's definitly not gonna want children now, I mean, he's gonna have the joy of little children now without having to get up in the middle of the night to feed him or without having to change nappies and stuff.
So yeah Belinda is unhappy, trying to figure out what to do. She's 30 now and wants kids but Kevin's not gonna give her any time soon. So she should leave him if she wants her kids, she's not getting any younger. 30 is pretty old already for a first child right?
But she obviously loves him and still thinks that he might say yes and... I feel sad for her!

3. My uncle and aunt were in Portugal when my aunt got really really sick. They went back to Belgium the same day and she went into surgery the moment they got back. She was in intensive care for a week but is okay now.
My uncle has been feeling bad for a long time now, but his GP said he was okay when he went for a checkup, but since he was in the hospital anyway he got another checkup.
Turns out that he has long-cancer.
It's spread out over his entire body.
He's only got a few more months to live.
He's doing some experimental Japanese chemo now, not that it's gonna cure him, but it might lengthen his life a little.
My mum is heartbroken since her only brother is gonna die soon. Me too, since he's my fave uncle.

4. My auntie, my mum's oldest sister, the one who's closest to my uncle mentioned above only weighs 42kg.
She lost 3kg in a week since she found out about her brother.
She is convinced that my uncle is going to be okay, that he only has a very mild form of cancer and that it's very very treatable.
And even with that convinction she lost 3kg. She now weighs 39kg!
Okay, she's not tall, but you should see her, she's a skeleton!
I'm soooooooooo sad. I don't want anything to happen her! She's my auntie! I love her so much! I can't lose my auntie and my favourite uncle!
I like lived at my auntie's place for a while, she's like a second mother to me!
My auntie =( ='( I've been crying so much over this!

5. I went to Andy on Mondayevening and went back home on Tuesdayevening. Only saw him a few hours, but I think you can imagine that they really did a lot of good to me.
I got to relax a little and just be around the person (people) I love, even if I didn't get that much sleep, it still gave me a lot of energy to go on.

6. Did I mention I worked 26 hours last weekend? That's Saturday and Sunday. From 7AM till 8PM both days.
I was pretty tired after that.
I've been working tons and tons of extra hours lately and now with the asswipe getting fired I have to work tons more even!

7. Yesterdayevening, my brother and his girlfriend came over.
After like half an hour in the middle of a conversation my brother said "we came here to tell you that you're gonna be an aunt".
So yeah, San is pregnant.
I knew this would  happen, since they had to use IVF.
But I don't know what to think of it. I mean I like the idea of being an aunt, really, I do. But my brother being a dad.... Sure, he takes care of San's kids, but they're "old", as in: not babies. My brother is a baby. I love him very much, but he's more childish than me.
I just don't see it happening.
Oh and he fiiiiiiiiiiinally told me the name: DJ. Which is really cool imo.
San just wants it to be Deejay and my brother want DJ.
I just know that if it's a boy, I'm calling him Don Juan. lol
At least that was some good news right =)


This entry's been long enough already and I think I got it all.
So yeah, don't expect me back soon.
Take care

Did I mention that Lotte broke up with her boyfriend? I can't remember if I wrote this already.
Man I was shocked when I heard. They've been dating for over 4 years and then they 'decided it would be better to go on alone'.
She's in france now, with her parents. I hope she can relax a little.
She asked me the other day to come along with her to Jeroen when she's back from france because she's gotta bring him some stuff and all.
I feel so sorry for her! It's like she's never lucky....

Ugh I'm not looking forward to this.
I gotta work tomorrow and the entire weekend from 7AM to at least 8PM and I gotta work on monday too, hopefully they'll give me Tuesday off then...
I'm gonna be exhausted.
Plus: my bosses are in a really bad mood because shit happened yesterdayevening/ this morning...
I hope they'll be okay tomorrow, it's gonna be a busy day!

I'll be staying at my dad's place because he lives at like 10 min from the supermarket, and then I'll be able to get some sleep at least.
I'll be back on Monday, maybe Tuesday.
Wish me good luck!

I got Claire on my wall!!!! Wiiiiiiiiiii
Still have to paint it, but man am I proud of it already!
Yay!

( Save the world, save the cheerleader! )

Yesterday after work, I took the train home and a girl that was in high school with me was on it as well. With a scarf around her head, I first thought it was a moslima. Turned out she had a sunallergy. So we talked a while and she was like "I nearly didn't recognise you" (like I was the one all covered up) so I said "yeah I cut my hair right" and she was like "and you're wearing colour! And your hair isn't black and you're wearing SHOES not those foul combats!" and I remembered she only knew me when I was like, well like she said: only wearing black, had black hair and wore combatboots all the time, hung round with goths and well yeah, stuff like that.
I'm happy I don't do that anymore. Made me realise how much I've changed over the past few years though...

Today I had to work, even though it was my day off normally.
Yesterday I was supposed to let people taste our fresh orangejuice and try to sell it to them, but I didn't have the time, I had waaaaaaaay too much work, so they made me come do that today.
I spent the entire afternoon standing in front of an open refrigerator, I was fucking freezing. Trying to sell orange juice.
By 6 we had no more oranges. I had sold our entire stock of oranges, lol.
My boss asked me to quit college and to come work for him full time. I said no. I told him to ask my mum, haha. He said he'd be able to convince her.... NOT!


Oh I didn't mention this before! They're renovating the trainstation in Bruges and now we have all sorts of shops in it, including a coffeeshop that has the best coffee ever. They know me there already, hahaha, I stop there like every day after work for a coffee.
One day I was wearing my dogma-shirt (it's got buddy christ on it) and the guy who works there was like "whoa supermovie!"
Now today I bought a coffee before work and he was there again "you're not wearing your cool shirt! I watched that movie again the day I saw you, man I love that movie!" Haha
OOOOOOH this reminds me: my mum bought me a muffin from that place, she brought it with her when she got home this morning. I'm gonna eat it.
No wait, we might still have some vlaai; gonna check first ^^

A lot of things happened after I wrote that really depressing entry about my birthdaydinner.

My sister really decided on not coming, I nearly got on the train to go get her, my mum stopped me. She cried some more, my brother tried to convince my sister. Nothing helped.

Around 8 Belinda and Kevin arrived. I said hi, was being all happy and stuff because I didn't wanna dissapoint my mum. Just when they had arrived Andy called me on my cell. So I ran upstairs because there was tons of noise downstairs and he was all "go outside", when I did, I saw his car drive up to our door.
He actually came to my stupid birthdaybbq! =O I was soooooooooooooo happy!
I was literally shaking from the shock and excitement!

Apparently Mira had arranged for him to come because a few weeks ago she asked me if I was looking forward to it and I said I wasn't because Andy couldn't be there. I was pretty sad she wasn't there so I couldn't thank her in person, but still, it was so nice of her!

It's funny because a lot of things became clear all of the sudden, like the fact that when I told my mum she should tell Mira she could sleep over in my bed, my mum wasn't very convinced.

On top of that Andy brought vlaai! It was the first time I ever had a 'cake' for my birthday and then I got the best cake in the world =O
And he gave me a wacom!

It was the best birthday I ever had (lol and my birthday is only in a week) but still, wow. What looked like would be a real big disaster turned out to be really really nice!
Sadly enough I had to work the next day, but still. I was really happy to see Andy again, because I missed him so much!

I truly have the best boyfriend ever!, haha I sound so cheesy now but ♥

Oh and I got a really cool book about Frank Lloyd Wright! And I got a voucher for a piercing. Now I'm finally gonna get my surfacepiercing. ^^
And my brother was being okay. So yeah, I had fun.
I have to work on my bday though.
But Mira and me are going shopping the day after, because she didn't come to my bbq. I can chose where we'll go, I think France would be nice... =)

I'm way too tired to do the full story now so I'm gonna stick to the essentials and the rest is for tomorrow (probably). Here it goes:

1.
2. Andy is the most amazing boyfriend ever!
3. I have a wacom! OMG I have a wacom! I've wanted one since forever and now I have a wacom!!!!!!! =DDDD
4. I had the best birthdaydinner thingy ever. Seriously ever!
5. Limburgse vlaai, yummy!
6. Did I mention I have a wacom?
7. I loooooooooooooooooooove Mira so fucking much!
8. I'm a total idiot, who owns a wacom btw, in case you didn't know this already.


So more tomorrow =)

I love you so fucking much! So so much!

I didn't want to do this in the first place. Right now I really really really don't wanna do this anymore at all!

My entire family is coming over to celebrate my birthday tonight.
My mum was planning a BBQ. It's gonna rain tonight, but hey no one seems to care. Why would they?

It's sorta all going wrong.
Mira is cashier in the supermarket where I'm working now and she had money short in her register, she was all panicing about it, says she wants to stop working there. Everyone has that in the beginning, but of course my sister has to make a whole drama about it, she cried in the supermarket...
Anyway my dad is supporting her, asking legal advice as to how she can get out from under the contract she signed. Like WTF!
She doesn't want to come anymore tonight. Because of that and also because she has to go home early because she's gotta start working at 7am tomorrow and my brother and the rest of him can only come around 8PM and she's like "I'm gonna ruin everything and I won't see anyone and blahblah"
So yay, my sister is not coming (that is sarcasm btw).

My mum is calling her atm to convince her to come. She hyperventilating, my dad is shouting at her. My mum was like "you know what... we'll do it another day!" UGH wonderful, I just made all sorts of sidedishes for the stupid BBQ and now she's all "I don't care, let's do it another day"
Luckily my sister didn't agree.

Then there's my mum. She drove to work this morning. By car that is. I don't know why, she always goes by train. She broke the car down. Somehow the radio shortcircuited and now the alternator is broken, never knew the radio could do that, but it seems to be a lucky day.The vacuumcleaner also died.

OMG my sister is now crying about gaining one kilo. One frggin' kilo! She was supposed to gain weight, that was the whole point of her going into counseling and all that shit!
I'm gonna die soon.

I was yet again reminded why I hate my birthday. =)



Anyway, I'm working on one of my summerprojects today =) I drew Claire on my wall, well not completely yet, it's a lot of work, but it's coming along. =) Let's think happy thoughts, right?
Gotta go now.

Wish me good luck tonight.


Edit: my mum is crying now =(((

Hahaha I was gonna write: "had a Johnny-Depp-movie-night with @lottedh last night" I'm too obsessed with twitter these days xD

So yeah, went to Lotte yesterday. We watched Charlie and then Secret Window. Then talked some before sleeping. Bout The Hague mostly. I'm getting my application form on Monday and if I decide to do it, I have to sign it and send it to Sofie (my teacher who's responsible for this) and I think I will. I still think it's really scary but what my teacher said yesterday made such a big difference. And then of course the fact that I called Andy's sister, she said some really nice things too. And Andy texting me that he thinks I should do it... It all made me feel so loved and like there's so many people there to support me that it gave me the confidence to decide to do it.

But actually I should start with the first thing. I can't believe I nearly forgot this:

I had to go to college tomorrow for my results!
Got there early (stupid trains), had people fussing over my hair.
A few of us were talking and we suddenly remembered we had to go get our drawings from the first semester in the other building (which is a few streets away). I said I'd go get them because they'd call my name last (Wijckmans is kinda at the end of the alphabet) when Bieke's bf said "wow you have little faith in yourself!". I asked why, he said they called names in order of grades, the best first and so on. I stayed.
They started calling names: First name was some guy I didn't know, second: Katinka Wijckmans! I was like OMFG OMFG that's meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and third was Mo, so we were both all psyched!

Then we got our grades. I have 2A+s 2As and 6 B+s, so I'm fucking excited!
College is like finally really over now and wow I had NOT (never in a million years) expected these grades and I'm second of my year! A girl between all those guys xD.

Afterwards my mum came to talk to Sofie about The Hague. Raf came along, which I didn't like at first, but turns out he's okay with me going (hopefully not because he's happy to get me out of the house).
My mum told Sofie she's freaking over me being gone for 4.5 months, Sofie assured her I'd be fine, told her everything about it and my mum now says I should do it.

In the evening I went to Lotte, which takes us back to the beginning of my entry. So we watched Charlie and Secret Window before sleeping and then Gilbert Grape when we woke up.
Then belinda asked if we wanted to go have an icecream with her. We did, of course, mmmmmmmmmm Da Vinci has the best ice cream EVER and it had been a year!
She gave me a little ducklet with rainbows and clouds that says "There's a silver lining behind every cloud and a rainbow after every storm." she added "go to The Hague! This is for when you miss us all when you're there or when you're having a hard time..."
I love my sister.

So yeah. I guess I'll be in The Netherlands for 4.5 months next year. Which is funny, scary, exciting, sad, wonderful, new, lonely,.... I don't know, it gives me so many feelings at once when I think about it....
Hahaha you know what's funny? I was in Bruges today and there were dutch tourists walking in front of me who were really annoying and I thought "ugh stupid dutch people" and then "oh shit, I'm gonna be stuck with them for 4 months =O"
hahahahahahahahaha

My co-worker is hard-drug addict. Yay.
Today and yesterday she was completely stoned. Seriously.
She's 17 now and when she was 15 she was in rehab from all sorts of drugs. She had the wrong kind of friends, dropped out of school, trouble with her mum, you know, that kind of shit.
But she started going back to school half-time and working at the supermarket half-time, kicked-off and shit. She was doing great, dropped the bad friends and was gonna move out to live on her own the moment she turns 18.

Then the past two days she came to work completely stoned. She admitted to my boss that she is back on hard-drugs. Says she can't deal with her mum and all the other shit in her life without it...
They plan on kicking her out this time. With stress on "plan". My mum said they've been "planning" to kick her out for as long as my mum's worked there already.
It's really fun to work with her, lol. I'm not allowed to do half of the stuff that needs to be done, because it's her job, but all she does is sit around behind the register, even when there's no people around and it frustrates me because stuff like yoghurt has to be in a fridge instead of just standing around when I could do it. But my boss told me I'm not allowed.
In the end he did it, lol.

At least I only worked 8 hours today. =)
Oh lol and a German customer told me my german is really good. Lol NOT

I just worked my first day at the supermarket.

Had to get up at 5 am to get there in time.
Started working at like 6.40. It was not too bad. A lot better than the Beer Palace actually. I mean, all you get all day is annoying customers there. But now, I don't have to deal with the customers. Hahaha that's the funny thing, an american can over while I was filling some shelves to ask if we had cooled drinks and I told him where the fridges were. He left then turned back and said "I'm surprised how good your english is" hahaha. I don't even have to talk to customers and somehow I still get that compliment.
First 5 hours I spent filling up shelves and checking for products that had expired and helping unload the truck whenever some company delivered stuff. Then my mum came nagging that I had to take a lunch break, so I ate a bit and then I had to help my boss.
He showed me all the stuff I'll be doing this month really. It seemed like fun. Well as much fun as a supermarket-job can get right?!
I just did as he told me, though I asked some silly questions, haha. I'm pretty slow. And he's from Ghent, so I didn't understand him half of the time. I felt like an idiot and I definitly thought he thought I was an idiot. He showed me how to do something and would then dissapear to do other stuff.
My mum told me later that during one of his dissapearances he came over to her and told her that he's never had anyone who was such a fast-learner and who takes so much initiative, who doesn't just sit around and only does something when she's told to do it. You should be proud of her!
So yeah, yay!

At around 2pm (I was supposed to work till 4pm) my boss asked me if I'd mind staying a little longer. I ended up working till 6.15PM and then had to run to catch my train.
My first day lasted 11 hours and now I'm EXHAUSTED.  Also: my right arm is covered in scratches. It looks like I'm a catsitter and not working at a supermarket, lol.

Still time went by really fast, never even realised it was already that late, until my mum ordered me to stop, lol. So that's a good thing =)

Tomorrow: more of the same but then worse, since Thursday is the bussiest day of the week. Wish me good luck!

It's been long since I did one of these right =O
This one was bound to come, even though it's a little awkward, hihi.



( Get to know... Andy )

I went to Germany for the first time in my life yesterday.
Haha I feel stupid saying this.
Belgium and Germany are neighbouring countries, so you'd think that in the (nearly) 19 years I've been walking around (well technically I haven't been walking 19 years...) I would have gone there at least once. But nope, not once.
Went to Aachen. Was really nice actually.
The first thing we did was go to the Dome (Cathedral, whatever you wanna call it) and it was dazzling. I mean, the thing has been around since Charlemagne! Was quite astonished by a painting that I thought was a Rubens (or a copy of the original at least) but it turned out ot be a ... work of one of his students that was very much like one of his paintings.
Walked around downtown a bit. Had coffee at Starbucks! Fuck man, Belgium really needs Starbucks! (Aside from in the airport)
On our way back home we stopped in the Netherlands and walked around there for a bit and then had dinner in Ikea there, haha, they have the best meatballs =P.

Talked to Andy about The Hague. I now know even less if I wanna go study abroad or not, lol. Though it was a very good conversation. I guess I'm just gonna have to make up my mind and go for it.

I have to start working at 7AM tomorrow. That means taking the train at 6AM. That means getting up at 5AM at the latest. =/

Totally off topic:
Sirius could blow up =O (I'm reading a book about astronomical catastrophes)
I love Sirius, it can't just blow up! Even if it's gonna take another millions of years, I don't want it (them) to blow up!!!!

Let's do this again:

Got it cut on Friday. Haven't told Andy yet, he's gonna see today and I'm so fucking nervous!!!!!!

What do you all think?

My exams are over!!!!!!!!!!!! *dances around*
Finally!
I actually finished a full year of college, quite succesfully!
I have 3 full months of rest now.
Well... I don't know my results yet (The 26th I will) and I'm working for all of July, with my mum being my boss (and she's tough, she throws out everyone because they don't work hard enough, so yeah...)

Anyway, I'm still really happy it's over =DD

Also: I went to Bruges today and some random woman told me she loved the colour of my hair. That was so sweet ^^ made me blush, haha.

I found my summershoes back, since I finally cleaned my room. Well I still need to mop it, but already vacuumed and all ^^. I can breath again.

Sunday I'm going to Genk, whaaaaaaaaaa I'm so psyched to go! =DDD

So I'm gonna go be lazy now, I deserve it =P xD

Call me a dramaqueen, say I exagerate, I don't care.
But it's a miracle I'm even writing this entry. I could've died last night.

I woke up this morning, walked past one of our wooden bookshelves and noticed something. Turned back to look and found the bud and ashes of a cigarette on one of the shelves and a really big black burnmark.
I told my mum and she got really pissed.

When my stepdad got home, she told him (and got really angry because it's dangerous and we were sleeping when it happened) and he just said "oh".

I mean WTF man! Sure you're tired and you have to get up in the middle of the night to go to work but who puts his cigarette on a wooden shelve (filled with books!) in the first place???? He just left the house in the middle of the night, while my mum and me were sleeping, with a burning cigarette on a bookshelve.

Man I'm so pissed at him, he didn't even care to apologise! What kind of an asshole does that?

And then he randomly asked my mum if there was mail, my mum said "yes an invitation from Howest" and he said "what's that?"
Mum: "Katinka's college maybe?!"
Raf: "Oh is that how it's called?"
*headpalm* I've been going there for a full year now and he still doesn't know it's called Howest. Mira's been going there for 2 years, it not like it's the first time he heard the name.
GRRRRRRRRR I fucking hate him. I feel like smacking him in the face or something. Seriously mghagmkhdgmlakgmhk!

Aaaaaaaaaah this is surreal.
I was just on a website, which had an add for a really terrible Belgian singer and his "tourdates" and on August 1st, he's performing in Wenduine.

That is so weird.
Lol.

Can't even remember the last time I was there.

I lived in every street in that town. Haha, we lived in 5 (6) different places in that town and it's so fucking small you wouldn't even believe it.
I really wanna go back there sometime. See what happened to it. Just not any time soon: summer in Wenduine (or Wenduine in summer) is horrible...

Ugh. Call me slow. Well I am slow. But I just realised something.

Tuesday I have to give a presentation about my doorhandle. About how it's made.
I have to explain the process of bending plywood in front of a jury and my entire class.
This process involves a mould, let me show you:

The uppermould is called the male-mould, the lower part, the female-mould.
My entire class consists of stupid imature guys who, you can imagine, will laugh their asses off when I explain this.
I, however, have to stay serious, because there is also a jury in the room, grading me.

Oh damnit. I do not look forward to this!

Don't trust copycenters! They're evil!

My cat attacked me this morning. I was sitting in the couch. The spot he claimed ever since Andy left and I had my pj's lying next to me because I had just gotten dressed. He went sitting on them and started scratching in them and stuff, I told him not to and he just grabbed my hand with all four paws and bit me really hard and was scratching like hell. I have now some deep scratches and bitemarks in my hand.
He did came to apologize afterwards.

This is him all miserable in the couch on Thursdayeve

Sunny weather gives me headaches, finally found my sunglasses back today. But they didn't help that much.

Belinda's probably not gonna get married. At all. Which is a real sad story I haven't even heard half of yet.

My auntie came today and I didn't see her because of the evil copycenter =O
She coming back the 11th of July. I hope I'll be around then.

My mum was really nasty to me today, telling me that andy's parents don't like me for me but just for dating him, she said that if I'd still be living with her in ten years that she'd like any guy I'd be dating too, because she'd want to get rid of me. Which was just plain nasty and totally uncalled for. (I think she needs a break from work, she keeps saying the weirdest stuff (also stuff that just doesn't make sense) and she falls asleep the moment she sits down on a chair...)

My dad and Mira are sick and I went to see them today, so I really hope I won't get whatever it is they have because I can't give a presentation when I don't have a voice....

Did I mention copycenters are evil??? They make you pay tons of money for stuff you didn't ask for, for mistakes they made and then they go all "don't think we're always this cheap!"

I think I'm gonna take a bath now. And then watch some tv. Yeah =) sounds like a plan.

Wow I needed this.
No matter how much it hurts that I'm alone again, I don't feel tears coming. I know it's only one more week and being able to look forward to that will make it so much easier.
Yes this was good. This was what I needed. I have the feeling I'm full of energy again.

I do have the feeling that my exams are over now though... But I'll do fine tomorrow, I mean, I already revised my "syllabus" twice and it's not even a theoretical exam. It's.... weird to have an exam for which I can't do anything, it feels wrong.
But I'm real glad I don't have to study no more, because fucking hell, studying is not my cup of tea. Just give me assignments, whatever, I don't care if you swamp me in work, but do not let me study too much. That's why I think I might the right decision in majoring in productdesign.
Two more years =).